Friday, October 31, 2008


Blue faced and ready to go.
I can not stop the inevitable embrace.
Closer we come, until we hug.
Closed eyes and holding breath.
A pat on the back says its time to leave, “Please Breathe.”
She said, “Before I let you go.”

I said, “No.”
She said, “Yes.”
Standing toe to toe.

Holding tighter the fog comes on fast.
Still holding, I don’t know how long I can last.
“Please forgive me,” I pray to my god, and breathe in the devil.
“Now was that so darn bad?”

“No it wasn’t,” I said with her eyes on mine.
Then she walked off with a stumble, and a, “I’m ok.” So divine.

So if you find yourself in this situation, and asked for exhalation, have no hesitation.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

A Middy Brain Drain

I was told today how I need to stop using the word I. The editor and chef said, "Its not an ok term to be used in journalism." That and we, you, and us are bad terms as well. Like the F word, is a bad word. You just don't say these things. I can see where they are coming form. But it is going to be hard for.......The Writer of This not use those god for sicken words.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

October Strings

Wonderful October day today. I miss you, you all, I look all around me and I realize how I wasn't alone all along. I saw all of the people and wondered why I didn't know them and why they don't know me.

I met a con girl today, she had conned her whole life away. I told her my phone number was a cup of coffee.

I met a man on the bus breathing hallelujah. I told him he wasn't alone but didn't listen to me.

I felt an old girl with a feather in her hair. I told her I was here and I'd talk to her for a little wile.

I miss my friends I've never had, I miss my father and I miss my dad, I miss my mother and joy we had. I finely see the October strings. Black cats and hags never had it in for me. I never had it in for them. I find my self where I need to be and a place I want to be. I think its beautiful, when all around me is falling into deficit.

The world could end and any moment. An asteroid could hit us at any time, things happen. We have no insurance of survival. No one to save us but us.